Becoming a Better Me

During my first year of college, I’ve let myself go. I have gained weight, ate bad, and don’t work out as much as I should. Before college, I ate super healthy and cooked most of my food. I lost twenty pounds in a month in a half just by cooking healthy foods with a healthy amount of carbs and lots of protein and even more water. When I got to college, I didn’t even think about gaining weight or being unhealthy. But as the time has gone by, my jeans are getting tighter. I feel like there are not as many options as there should be. I eat so bad here because there is no other option. I am a super picky eater and that does not help my situation at all. I should also work out more than I do now. I work out MAYBE once or twice a week and we all know that doesn’t do anything good for the body. Also, I don’t give myself enough relaxation time or any me time for that matter. I seclude myself in my room while I do homework, study, lay in bed doing nothing and I always think about wanting to go sit in the park to get fresh air, or take a bubble bath, go swimming, go sit in the hot tub, do some yoga, go for a walk, etc., but since I am so self-conscious about myself now, its hard for me to go out and present myself in a bikini to go swimming. So, from here on out, I’m going to focus on myself and become a healthier me but also focus on my school and my future. I know that I have an unbelievable support system between my family and my friends and my boyfriend. People can always tell you over and over how much they support you and sometimes you just need more than that. You need yourself and the support from yourself to keep going and move forward. We can all put ourselves down so much, but for what? We all have so much potential, we are so strong and all of us are so beautiful. We will all be successful and accomplish anything that we put out minds to. We need to not stress about every little so often and focus on ourselves, stress about our importance, our health and our well-being. I love you all. <3

STRESS

I’m sure many people can relate to this blog. With the end of the semester coming to end there are many things that have been on my mind lately worrying me to death, even if they shouldn’t. I have applied to the nursing program, and many people who have applied can probably relate to this but… the stress is UNREAL. I am basically a ticking time bomb waiting until May 1st to know if I got in or not. There are good and bad things about this. If I get in, I will be unbelievably happy and grateful, but the bad thing about getting in is finding somewhere to live next year. Since there are no on-campus housing options available to me, I’ve been looking for off-campus apartments to live in. My best friend from home, who is also my roommate this year and I want to live together next year again but she has already signed a lease for an apartment but I cannot sign a lease until I know if I got in or not because if I don’t get into the nursing program, I am unfortunately going home, and with that being said, the other room available with her could be taken by someone else and I wouldn’t be able to live with her. If I don’t get into the nursing program and I go home, I will do a two-year program through the Sentara nursing program or go to the community college near my house to get my degree in nursing. On top of that, I am having to take two five-week summer courses this summer at a community college an hour away from my town because they don’t offer it anywhere else. Either way, I’m hoping everything works out. I am a believer in the saying “everything happens for a reason”. I have worked extremely hard this year at VCU to get good grades, better than my grades in high school, to pursue my dreams of becoming a nurse. I haven’t had the best experience here at VCU and I don’t know exactly why. I haven’t made many friends and I haven’t joined a lot of clubs like I said I would… but I feel like the reason is because I’ve got myself so wrapped up in school work and doing homework and studying that I have no time to relax and give myself “me time”. I know college is stressful, but I feel like it shouldn’t be this stressful! So, if anyone has any tips on how to calm down (A.K.A take a chill pill), please let me know! Also, if anyone wants to be my friend and hangout, feel free, I need some girl friends xoxoxo.

An Open Letter to my Best Friend

Thank you for being you. Thank you for being by my side for the past eight years. I think you deserve the world and I know you don’t see that. You are my shining light in times of darkness. I always find myself wondering about what I did to deserve you. You taught me exactly what a soulmate is and I couldn’t imagine my life without you. You have so many friends and family that love you more than you could ever know, and we all see so so so much potential in you. You believe in me when I don’t even believe in myself and you have loved me for exactly who I am throughout all these years. You taught me what love means, you are love. You are the most beautiful person I have ever met inside and out and everyone in this crazy world would be lucky to know you like I know you. You rock my whole entire world (as if you already didn’t know that). I think people are placed into certain lives for a reason and I wonder how I got so lucky. You loved me when I was hard to love and you listened to me when I didn’t have a voice, but most importantly, you never gave up on me. You give me so much happiness and love and I know that wherever life takes us, you will always be in my life. Your friendship is one of the greatest gifts I have ever received. I thank God that our paths crossed because you are the best thing that has happened to me. People want to be around you, they want to get to know you and get the energy you give off and the vibe that you have. You are the positivity in any room you walk into. I will forever be so blessed for our memories and our hardships… I will cherish them forever. You are so much stronger than you realize. You are a fighter but so soft and sensitive. You are so kind and warm and beautiful. You are everything. You make everyone around you want to be the best version of themselves. You always strive for more, you always want more, and you will do anything in your power to reach your goal, you don’t give up… no matter what. Don’t let people turn you into something you’re not or make you believe you should be somebody else because out of all the people I know, you are the one that God created almost perfectly. You amaze me every single day.

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Things Most People Don’t Know About Me

Hello! My name is Ashlynn and I am a freshman at VCU as a pre-nursing major. Aside from the ordinary and boring things that most people know about me like being 5’1”, having dirty blonde hair and green eyes, blah blah, I want to share some personal things about myself. I was born three months premature weighing two pounds and thirteen ounces. I was very sick and so was my mom. She was diagnosed with preeclampsia, and I was in the NICU for two months; both of us were struggling to survive. My mom and dad were very young when they had me… only twenty years old and living in my grandparent’s basement in Farmville, Virginia while my dad was still in college at Longwood University. My mom had left Liberty University and once I was born, she attended a community college to get her nursing degree. Throughout my life, I have always been super close with my parents, my mom is my best friend, “in high school the only girl you can really trust is your mom,” is what she would always tell me. When I was younger, I danced for 8 years, but I quit because I broke my foot and wasn’t really into dancing anymore. I tried cheerleading but I was not a fan of that at all. Finally, I tried softball and found that it was my passion. I started with rec ball, and after a couple of seasons, I was on a travel softball team and went to Myrtle Beach, Orlando to play on the ESPN field, Tennessee, and many other places. Softball consumed my life and all of my time. I was also on my high school’s varsity softball team. Coming to college, I had to end my softball career but when I get the chance, I always go to watch my old team play in tournaments. I also really enjoy swimming. The beach is, by far, my favorite place to be. During the summer, I spend most of my time at the beach with my friends. One thing I’ve always wanted to do was learn to paddle board in the ocean. My favorite animal is a sea turtle; I have a sea turtle tattoo on my back that I drew myself. I am a full supporter of cleaning the oceans and protecting our sea life. During my junior year of high school, I was in a CNA program to become a certified nurse assistant. Passing my state boards and becoming a nurse assistant was the best decision I have made because it made me realize that nursing is what I really want to do. I love to help people and bring comfort to patients and families during some of their most vulnerable times. My birthday is on Earth day! I also broken eight bones in my life; four of them being the same bone (two in my hand and two on my foot). I have a benign tumor in my left hand from being premature causing my bones to be very fragile and easy to break. I also have PCOS (poly cystic ovary syndrome), making it hard for me to get pregnant, easy to gain weight, messing up my hormones, and other things. I am borderline diabetic and have hyperthyroidism.  I know, I’m a mess!

What is the hardest thing you’ve had to wait for? Why do you want to be a nurse?

There are many things that I’ve had to wait for in my life but this is probably the most nerve racking one. When I first picked VCU as my school, I had no idea that getting into the nursing program would be so competitive and just straight up hard. I also didn’t know that I had to apply to get in after already starting prerequisite classes and everything else that comes along with it. I’ve always wanted to be a nurse; during my junior year of high school, I became a Certified Nurse Assistant (CNA). It was probably the best decision I could have made for myself because it gave me real life experiences on what being a nurse would be like working with patients who were chronically ill, suffered from strokes, etc. I grew a strong bond with many of the patients in the hospital and it was the highlight of my days during clinicals. SO, becoming a nurse was something I was positive about. Completing my application for VCU’s nursing program a month and a half early and waiting until May has got to be one of the hardest things to wait for. It has become a waiting game and I hopefully I get the news I want, if I don’t, I will be going home to complete a different program. Becoming a part of VCU’s nursing program is something that I want so badly because I will be provided with the best education, one of the best hospitals and facilities, make some of my forever friends, and most importantly, save lives, and birth babies. If I do become a part of VCU’s nursing program and I succeed, I want to become a neonatal nurse or a labor and delivery nurse. I was born premature weighing two pounds and 13 ounces and hearing all of the stories my family has told me about the amazing support and care of the nurses made me want to become a nurse even more. The life of a nurse is never boring OR slow. Even though you can prepare yourself for what is to come to the best of your abilities, there will be moments when you have no idea what to do and you just want to break down. I think nursing a great choice for women and men who thrive under pressure and excitement. I want to be the person who helps people and families during some of their most vulnerable moments.