As the semester is coming to a quick close, i’m sure many of us have become a bit nervous of our grades, I definitely know I have. I think the most stressful thing about college is the fact that in so many of our classes extremely large chunks of our grade is based on exams or tests. As someone who is extremely bad at taking tests, this is horrible for me.
My whole life I have struggled extremely hard when it comes to tests. I know I know the subject on the test, but no matter how hard I study or how long I drill the information into my head, when I sit down to take the test, it’s like I learned absolutely nothing. I’ve tried so many different study methods but nothing seems to work. So when it comes to classes, I rely a lot on homework and projects to help keep me steady. Exams are extremely stressful and I know for me it puts a lot of pressure on me at once and I kinda just shut down. I actually just took a statistics exam today, I studied for a couple hours each day to prepare myself, and the moment I opened the test, I blanked.
I think the part that sucks the most is that I know I know the material and that I truly do try hard, but the grades I receive on the tests makes it look as if I didn’t try at all. I try to keep a positive mindset, telling myself that as long as I tried my best that’s all that matters, but I still feel like a failure. To my family, when they look at my test scores it seems as if I don’t care about the class or that i’m simply not trying, but in reality i’m trying so extremely hard. Since college is based almost solely around the grades you receive, it’s really hard for someone like me to feel successful. It’s pretty much survival of the fittest, in my opinion. If you cant memorize a pound of material in a short period of time, then you’re screwed. But, someones grades shouldn’t fully define them. I know i’m a hard worker, and I truly care about my education and I think there should be better ways to express our knowledge besides having exams that are worth 90% of our grade.