~*trust*~ your gut

When I opened my results and saw the scores that were marked next to each category, I was kind of surprised! For the majority of the personality traits, I received a  score of “medium” and was pretty close to each class average. I am mostly shocked about my “sensation seeking” score of 14, which is a score that is considered medium/high. Even though I 100% want to skydive one day in the future, I view myself as someone who almost always stays in their comfort zone. I do like to try new things, but oftentimes I get scared and back out because I’m nervous about what could happen or that I simply don’t want to fail at the given task. In class, one of the main points of sensation seeking that was pointed out is a willingness to try anything. That is definitely not me. If it puts me out of my comfort zone, I’m probably not going to do it. This survey made me realize that always staying in my comfort zone is something I will definitely start regretting. I think there are pros and cons of trying anything, but I want to challenge myself and do all that I can! My “anxiety sensitivity” score was 12, which is medium, and I’m surprised because I thought it was going to be a lot higher. I get stressed out easily, but in a way it pushes me to get things done and I’m usually satisfied with the results. My anxiousness about something bad happening affects my sensation seeking a great amount. I want to work on finding a balance between the two! It can be healthy to get a little scared sometimes, but I don’t want it to take over opportunities that could really benefit me.

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When making decisions, there are definitely pros and cons of trusting your gut feeling. I think trusting your gut is making a decision that your heart is telling you to make and making it quickly, but that decision doesn’t always benefit you or workout the way you planned it to, which is where the cons come in. When you trust your gut, you are blocking out your surroundings in order to make that quick decision. To me the biggest pro is definitely that you’re usually right when trusting your intuition and having that hunch. Listening to your heart can take you so many places. One of the cons of trusting your gut when making a decision is that you aren’t always being logical and taking everything into consideration. This could lead to negative outcomes. I think the pros outweigh the cons because life is all about following your own instincts and seeing where they take you. If you take too long to make a decision using logic, life will start to pass you by and you may regret not trusting your gut.

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When it comes to my personality, I usually think things through by being logical and rational. Sometimes I ignore my gut because I don’t want to be wrong, even though I know that you’re usually right when doing so. I’m not usually optimistic, but that is something I am working on. When making a decision I usually think about the negatives more than the positives, which directly affects my cognitive style. There are still times I do trust my gut, but I want to do it more! When I applied to college, I was thinking about where exactly I could see myself going and VCU was the only place. I didn’t want to apply anywhere else. I kept telling myself that I was meant to go here and that’d I’d get in, but in the back of my mind I was thinking about the consequences of only applying to one university and not getting in. I ended up trusting my gut by only applying to VCU, and luckily got in! It was a risk but it was so worth it, and coming here is one of the best decisions I’ve made. Trusting your intuition can be hard, but when I look back at all of the times that I have, I’ve usually been right.

 

Finding My Purpose

I’ve been told my entire life that finding your own purpose is what life itself is all about. The thought of finding one (without even knowing where to “look”) became so engrained in my head that I was almost forcing myself to do things that I wasn’t enjoying or believing in. I have realized over the years that focusing on my purpose is about what want to do and what believe in.  When I finally blocked out what everyone else wanted me to do, I began finding out more about myself and what I want to do with my life. I struggle with this process everyday and I think it is partly due to the fact that I am a very future oriented person. It’s not always a bad thing but it can definitely get out of hand. With everything I do, I think about how it is going to impact me later, whether it is next week or ten years from now. Currently I’m realizing that I hardly ever live in the present. I work so hard because I want this “ideal” future where everything is perfect, but I don’t want to look back on life and regret not doing things and taking chances. Little moments of the present can mean so much more than the bigger picture of the future, and that is what I am currently working on telling myself everyday to overcome the struggle of always thinking about what is going to happen years from now. Living in the moment will help form my future.

The number one thing that helps me view myself in a more positive lens is simply working out. It gets rid of my stress within the first 2 minutes of starting and I absolutely love it. There is truly nothing better than finishing a hard workout and knowing you did your best. I find so much peace in that. The results I see in the mirror are just an added bonus. Getting out of bed and going to the gym is by far the most difficult part of any day, but once I begin there is no turning back. Lately I have fallen out of my gym habit and I give every excuse as to why I can’t go. The excuses I give myself hold me back from the feeling that I really did accomplish something, and I don’t want to lose out on that anymore. To me working out can be so much more than the gym. I love hiking and going on walks, so I’m going to put more of an effort into doing these things as well. Throughout the semester and this SOH class, I really hope to stop making excuses and to just go for it.  If I can overcome that then I think everything else in my life will fall into place. If I feel good physically, I will feel even better mentally, and that is the biggest reward.

My main goal is to challenge myself to do things I’ve never done because I think that is when life becomes truly fulfilling.

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After going through the SOH blog and reading others’ posts, I have been motivated to really start focusing on the positives rather than the negatives. It’s nice to know that other people have the same thoughts and struggles that I do when it comes to focusing on your purpose in life. I’ve been inspired to really work hard towards making positive changes to my own well being and to dedicate myself to the things I love.