When I heard in class that many people either improved, stayed the same, or declined, I thought “Oh, no. The worse one is probably me.” Lo and behold, I was right. I just think that in the beginning of the course, I was excited when school had started and was ready to go into class thinking it was going to be fun. Now that we have come to an end, I am just a bit exhausted. My studying is a little more intense than how other people study and takes up a majority of my time each day. This way of studying is super exhausting and I had to double up on this way of studying for two classes. The results of the intense studying were great, but it has taken a toll on me mentally. I’m just mentally exhausted now that the end is nearing and I think that reflected on my well-being score.
I don’t believe I’m any different in well-being overall from the beginning to now. I think I was influenced on how I felt on that day that I took the survey. Just like any other days, when I am in a bad mood, it reflects on my whole day, but the next day I’ll be just fine. My mood mainly depends on what happens during that day.
I don’t think this course has changed me much. It just introduced to me a lot of concepts and experiences. Mindfulness was an interesting topic. I got to think about myself in the present as opposed to having my mind racing elsewhere. I learned that it was important to be grounded in where I was currently and just to be mindful of what is around me and how I was feeling. Most of the time, my day flies by and I don’t recall a lot of things simply due to me being focused on other aspects.
Mindfulness has changed how I approach things now. I am more aware of my self and not so much in my head all the time. I actually see more of my day and remember more as well. That one class with Dr. Brown and the raisin experiment made me aware of how we are programmed to do and not think now. We don’t savor the way a raisin feels and tastes, we just eat it. That’s like how some of my days are. I just do what I need to do like go to class, study, and so on, but I don’t think about my walks to classes, how I feel while walking, or the little activities happening around me. We miss so much of what is right in front of our eyes.
Going back to my scores on the survey, I still believe that my mood on that day reflected on how my scores were on the notecards. I wasn’t being mindful that day and it shows. I believe my numbers would be the same as it were from the beginning of the year. If all my testing days were over by the time I took the wellbeing survey, I’m positive that the scores would be higher.